Trembling with Anticipation

Sometimes I feel as if my whole life revolves around anticipation, which is completely and totally pointless and unfortunate. Not a cool way to live.

This is one of the many reasons I am so content with my life at this point in time. Although maybe (I really hope this makes as much sense as I intend) there are things I am anticipating (. . . =). . .), I am living my life right now.
I hope...

At least I will tell you that I have made decisions about what I want thus far:

• I want to get better grades than before (it's a must!) & the best I believe I can get.
• I want to feel organized.
• I want to feel as if I am doing my best in everything college-related.
• I want to hang out with ALL my friends that I miss so much, and those I can't physically see I want to keep in touch via phone, e-mail, IM, facebook, or real letters.
• I want to do Zumba, and not be too much of a chicken to go by myself.
• I want to kick ass in Tae Kwondo!
• I want to make progress in discovering what I want to do with my life.
• I want to make my plans for this summer (Honduras!?!?! <3)
• I want to continue searching for God on campus, in whatever, in whomever, or wherever that might be. The Lutheran ministry is a start. Maybe the Episcopalians have gotten their act together too. Even if it's taking a slow meditative walk, I've got to do something this year. Last year was awful in that respect.
• I want to make this year a good year.

I realize that there are a whole lot of "I want's" in this list, and many are needs as well. I also know that they'll take a lot of work, but I need to do it. Unfortunately, this may mean cutting back on some intense phone conversations (<3) or pc time (oh, whatever will i do? heh).

I can and will do as much as I can. I need to, for my sanity if nothing else. Besides, everyone paying for me to take these crazy classes, including myself, deserves to know that they are not wasting their time and money. So there.

Anyway, long day tomorrow...gotta find the health center for blood pressure check & heartrate checks. woot woot. *scrunches nose*

Good niiiight!